Vorladien is happy, I am happy and I refuse to change that.
What Celeborn feels, I do not know. Vorladien reassures me that he will agree, but I will always have a fear of being out of favor with him. He is the closest thing I have to a father now. Thranduil and his kingdom are my enemy now and I am not sad by this.
I wonder how he is though, where his mind is. He used to be so calm, sensible, albeit materialistic. What happened to cause such a change? Why has he fallen into darkness? How could he be so weak?
Will I be like him and betray my family as he betrayed his?
So many questions and no answers...
And so little time to answer them.